nerd jelly beans?

who knew they had a candy for nerd giant jelly beans?!
anyways, today was a long day.. got up, helped chris and heather out the door/pack up, got flowers at the store, got gas, went to visit ernie's grave.. filmed the end to the video for the memorial, dropped them off at the airport.. i cried, i miss them so much already. i love both of them more than life. then after a series of events i went to jamba juice and did a shopping trip with my mommy. we had some really good talks about life, friends, school.. then i checked out the new phone i'm getting, i'm SO excited :D after that i had my philosophy midterm, (which was a breeze :), then straight to work, from work i came straight home, did more homework and took a shower. now i find myself here, eating the nerd jelly beans heather left here. haha. oh and i sliced my finger open REALLY bad at work tonight, it hurts SO SO SO BAD to type, and just in general :( and the safeway guy keeps asking for my number.. geeze it just doesn't stop. i had bad dreams again last night, i'm scared that i'll wake up a lot tonight like i did before heather and chris were here. when they stayed here i slept so soundly. i worry about them, and pray for them a lot. blahhh it hurts to type. i'm going to try and put myself to bed.. i have too many thoughts.
my brain's all jumbled up :/
but i did finally get the courage to add that boy on FB (;