hello seattle:

i just want to know what's wrong with me :/
why i wasn't good enough. blahhh.
the past three days i can't sleep, i feel like i'm in a daze.
no one asked about the band aide on my wrist last night. either they didn't notice or were too polite to ask, i'm not sure which. hopefully it's the same tonight, i don't want to lie but i will if i have too. i'm excited because tonight i'm working with cortney and she's such a sweet heart. and then after i'm hanging out with her, julz and alyssa and we're having a girls night :D i'm so excited to have some fun and get my mind off of life.

i'm texting leslie right now, and we're talking about how both of us are too trusting. i don't think i'll ever be able to trust another guy again- and that makes me sad. but after the last two incidents with boys i can't afford to make that mistake again, it would kill me.